Am I falling off of the wagon?

So I guess my my version of support and the world's version of support is different. For example, I personally am eating my special time and all I want to eat is chocolate. So I am eating chocolate and my husband is like I knew you couldn't stick to it. What was he trying to do? Guilt me in it? Or my mom is like we ARE you going to the gym or not. I just want somebody to do it with me. Not be the boss of my diet.

It has been super tough this week. I have gone to the gym 3 times and that one day of yard work so I am not doing so bad with the exercise part. My diet has gone to shits. I had to go to the doctor for something else this week and she told me I need to eat 3 oz. of nuts (had to be almonds or walnuts) as a morning snack every day. It supposedly has been show to suppress your appetite. I am not a nut fan.

Tomorrow is my weigh in day. I am not excited at all about it. I hope I didn't gain a pound. That would suck so bad. I am going to go by some fresh fruit tomorrow. I know that will make me happy.

The Biggest Loser

So, an advantage of my gym is that every piece of cardio equipment has a TV attached and you just plug your headphones in to it. You can change the channels and it has about 50. So the reason I am on a machine for an hour is that I am watching some program in completion.

So my Tues. program is The Biggest Loser. It is my devil week (so it will be my girly time at some point) and this was week 4 on the show. All I could think of is the fact they still lose weight. I am always bloated and crave anything sweet. It is amazing. My biggest goal is not to GAIN weight this week. Everyone has had their time at least once and they all put up amazing numbers. The Orange team was voted off and I was so inspired by the boy determined to be skinny. He has lost like 110 pounds so far! I always work out harder when the show is on. Like when I watch Grey's Anatomy, cardio is like something I am doing in the background. When The Biggest Loser is on, I bust my ass.

I wonder if I can get the seasons from Netflix. I kinda watched the first season when I was in college but every other season would push me to do better. It really is motivational. I will have to look into that.

I feel like people read this and are my workout partners in that respect. I feel like they need to know I have been working out and not slacking so they will not slack. Lord, knows it is easy to do. It is not like these people will come to my house and beat me if I do not go; however, I do feel slightly like I might let them down. I read their progress every day before I go to the gym because if someone like me is working on it....I can too. I find it hard to find a workout partner at the gym because every there is so super skinny and I feel like no one can relate to the fact that I want, no I NEED, to lose at least 100 pounds.

HOLY COW!!

So I woke up this morning and I realized about my second step that I could not move. By not move, I mean I keeled over in immense pain. Apparently, hauling 25 bags (weighing I found out later about 45 pounds) around for 4 hours might have actually been a work out. My legs were burning. I walked like I had to go to the bathroom the WHOLE day. (Side note: It is good I used my legs and my back didn't hurt like a son of a gun!!!)

So I was debating again on whether I was going to the gym tonight, I told myself that I was goingt to go no matter what. So I took a nap and stretched my legs. I just figured I would just use the arm machines or something. I actually ended up on my friend the elliptical machine for 45 min. I could have gone longer but I didn't want to over do my legs.

I am thinking about Feb. 1 starting the regular Power 90. I have the disks. I feel like I am in shape enough to actually try to do it.

No Gym tonight

Well, I did go last night.

Tomorrow is the appraisal on our house. If you have been living under a rock, UPDATE, houses are worth less! So I spread 25 bags of mulch, raked the yard and then cleaned the whole inside of the house. I need it to appraise the same as last year when we bought it. It is now almost 10 pm and I just got my first break. I do not think I can possibly go. I feel like I am being cheap about it.

I feel like all that work should count. I might stretch and do some calisthenics. Then for a nice soak.

Weigh In #3

So solid loss this week. I was really quite proud at my self for keeping with it. This is usually the do or die part of the diet for me. Well in this case, it is a lifestyle change.

Last night, I was rally bad. On my way to the gym a friend called and we went to a bar. I drank 3 glasses of water and a diet coke and vodka with a grilled chicken salad (no dressing). I was doing fine until she ordered spinach and artichoke dip for the table. Dammit. I tried to be so strong. That was non existent. I probably ate an extra 400 calories in dip. Dammit.

I am going to go to the gym an extra hour as punishment.

Death by Elliptical Machine

OMG!! I am going to feel this workout in the morning. So I decide to see how much stamina I have built up on it. 2.5 hours I am still going strong. I probably could have gone longer, but there wasn't anything good on TV. I know my legs will be pissed at me tomorrow.

So I was thinking about the daily weights I take. I weigh myself every morning and only record the ones on Friday. So I have a feel on my fluctuations. I feel that this is beneficial, but is it cheating? I do not over do it. I have read a few studies that people who weigh themselves daily tend to weigh less. I will have to ponder further.

I picked up the new Fitness and Fitness RX magazines. Even though Eddie is a money ninja, he still lets me make these kind of purchases because he thinks it inspires me. The people in there are just unrealistic. I swear! I tried some of the simple yoga suggestions and man apparently I just have no balance. 12 years of karate and you would I thought I had at least an ounce.

Well, wish me luck on my weigh in tomorrow.

My first Temptation

Man oh man.....So last night I decided to watch my new favorite inspirational show...The Biggest Loser. While I watched, I did push ups, sit ups, and general weight lifting. I was surprised to find that I can do actual push ups. I have been doing the cheap kind and I managed to do like 20 of the "boy" kind. I am going to try to work my way up to 100 by the end of the month. Will keep you updated.

I am trying to figure out a reasonable time I hope to hit my goal. I do realize that 110 pounds will not come off tomorrow. What is realistically possible? I know I will have plateaus and such. I am pretty dedicated.

I passed my first serious temptation today.....well I think I did. At work they ordered Bojangles. Before the meeting, I went on their website to find out if I could pick something that would be too bad. So the best thing was the Cajun chicken breast with no bread or mayo for ~280 calories and 5 g of fat. The rest was eye opening! If you haven't looked at that nutritional sheet, I would check it out ASAP! The meeting didn't even include that type of chicken. I took a Healthy Choice steamer which was delicious and chewed about 8 sticks of gum in 2 hours. You cannot imagine what $140 in Bojangles even looks like.

SNOW!!!

So yesterday, I decided to go to the gym. I did a great job and when I was done I locked myself out. Quite frustrating. So most poeple know that the Carolinas received snow today. It has shut everything down since A) no one can drive in it & B) the state doesn't plow or sand the streets. So tonight I am going to pick a get fit program on one of the channels this evening and follow it.

I do have some kind of Lose dat Booty disk. Will update tomorrow on if I died or not.

2 Hours

Yay! I did 2 hours on the elliptical machine today as punishment for the birthday party I attended. It was for Eddie's baby sister. There is rarely anything actually good for you at one of these kinds of get togethers........there were chips, cheese dip, fried rice, etc. and of course cake. I did really well and I was hungry and heard they were going to have dinner. I should have realized it wouldn't be good for me and left prior to it.

I am guessing I consumed around 1900 calories today.....very naughty and against my strict 1200-1500 limit. So I stayed until I burned 1500 calories on the elliptical machine. It took me precisely 1 hour and 56 min. so I stayed on for the last couple min to make it 2 hours.

It really wasn't so bad. I am thinking of writing out a workout schedule. What I am doing seems to be working for now since I am losing weight. Harris Teeter has phenomenol blackberries on sale this week =). Well off to soak.

The mom on board

So I have decided my mother needs to lose weight. I called her up and told her she needs to be my workout partner from 150 miles away. We will have to compete. She is resisting, but she will succumb.

So I went to the gym. It is soooooooooooooooooooooo cold outside. I know this is good but damn I like staying under the cozy covers.

Talked to Aaron today (a brother). He decided to do the Power90X routine and is on week 2. He sounds like he is so super sore. I have the original one. I found it in my movies after I moved. I was thinking after getting enough in shape I might try. Basically, it is a program you do for 90 days alternating between 2 35-45 min programs. I tried it the other day and my abs yelled at me. Maybe I will be far along enough Feb. 1 to attempt to do it.

Week 2 Update

So I lost another 3 pounds last week. I have been struggling to eat well. I am so sore and I didn't go to the gym Thursday. I have made it the to the gym Friday.

My good friend was laid off yesterday. I am hoping she does ok. Last night, I did a mini circuit and it was so hard. I did 20 min. on the Treadles machine, 20 min on a recombent bike, and 20 min on the tread mill. Today, I cannot feel my legs.

I am not sure what I am going to do today.

Hrm...

I am so super sore. I didn't really do much last night beyond my elliptical machine and a few weights. I ate terribly yesterday and should be yelled at for this. Eddie calls them running metaphorical red lights. I like that. He is like just because you ran a redlight you will not keep running them will you. This is of course to me saying that since I cheated all I will do is keep cheating.

Cross your fingers! I am going to the dental school today to see if I have the problems with my teeth for the Dentist Exam in a month. If so, they will work on my mouth completely free! It would be so nice if it could cut down my $1700 hundred after insurance bill down a few hundred dollars!

Well, will update later. I already have notice I can wear these pants I couldn't wear before Christmas. That is already a promising sign for this weeks weigh in.

Ok.....I am not really being THAT lazy

So yesterday I did fine with my eating but I lost my keys. The way the gym works is a fob which you wave to go in.....it was conveniently on said key chain....

I spent 2 hours looking for it. I ended up finding it this morning in my makeup bag.

Today I did go to the gym and eat well.

I have been frantically ebaying looking for a bridesmaid dress I am wearing at the end of the year. I am hoping with due diligence I might be able to get it for 40-60 dollars. I have found it in 5 other colors. 3 of them would have/been able to made to fit me. Cross your fingers. It is 2009 and things will start going my way!

110 Pounds

Isn't that kind of ridiculous. I it almost like I said I am going to run a marathon tomorrow.

I haven't really set a goal time to try to accomplish this. I am hoping it will get easier and easier so I can do more. So if I lose 2-3 pounds a week I might be able to start 2010 at my goal weight. I wonder if that is reasonable. I feel like I have the self discipline.

So I decided to set mini goals and rewards. I am not sure what they will be yet.

110 pounds is the cruise

What I should reward myself with....a spa treatment? movies? I guess I will think about this more when I get closer to the goals. I am thinking 25,50,75, and at 105 it will be a new wardrobe =).

I somehow wish this was as easy as it was putting on the weight. Exercising is so much harder than eating. I am finding food that is good for me and tastes better than I thought it would. Well here is to the this weeks results.

Today I stayed the course and ate reasonably well. I tossed most of the leftover Christmas candy. It does not need to stay in this house to tempt me.

More tomorrow!

Week One Weigh In

I lost 3.5 pounds this week. I think it was a solid start. Didn't eat a single doughnut and bagel today. Ate well & went to the gym.

I found a public pool with open swimming tomorrow. I am going to see if I can talk Eddie into going.

One Week

So I weigh in tomorrow. I ate not as well as I should have =(

Did go to the gym for 2 hours.....one on the treadmill...one on the elliptical machine.

I go to small gym and there is not a lot of variety. They have a recumbent bike and a treadles machine. I might start going a rotation; however, the gym is pretty crowded when I go.

My big test is...Doughnut Bagel Friday at work. They do not provide fruit so really nothing on that table should be eaten. I usually break down around my 10 am sugar need. So I will have to take precautions.

ugh.....

I keep telling myself this isn't a diet but a new frontier of unexplored land. I already miss bacon =(. I think I am going to try the turkey bacon. It is supposedly not so bad. So sat. I might have some eggs and turkey bacon.......

Today I stayed the course:
meal replacement shake & banana
lean pocket & apple
Healthy Choice Soup w/Pineapple
granola bar

After the gym I had cantaloupe. So I have added the fruit. Need to work on the veggies.

The gym was tough. Elliptical for an hour and then I got on the treadmill to get an idea of how much more I had left. I went another 10 min alternating between running and walking.

I cannot believe how out of shape I am in.

I played basketball, softball, and volleyball. I threw in track & field and am a black belt in karate. Even did gymnastics and swim team for a few years. I cannot even imagine swimming a medley in my current shape or doing the 2000 push ups that were required for my black belt test.

My goal yesterday was to add water. I think I drank around 72 ounces. It was a lot of hard work though.

Today

So today......I went to the gym. It is getting slightly easier since I am trying to make it a habit.

On the food front no real slip ups; however, I need to work on drinking more water.

Hrm:

Yogurt and banana breakfast
apple and meal replacement shake lunch
banana snack
grilled chicken breast with rice and steamed veggies

I am going to have some sugar free jello while I go watch the biggest loser.

I decided I might as well start taking a multivitamin before I go to bed to make sure I am getting everything I need.

Tomorrow's goal: 6 glasses of water

Oh and in case you are curious Friday mornings are my weigh in days =)

Now Diet

So I went to the gym again and spent another hour on the elliptical machine. I hate that damn thing.

Now I have to work on a more balanced diet.

So I went shopping.......

5 kinds of fresh fruits & veggies
some healty choice meals
some soup (I am really into it when it is cold outside)
juice
yogurt

They didn't have the cappuccino double chocolate fat free breyer's ice cream tho. I was quite upset.

I did pretty solid today:

Granola bar + orange for breakfast
Healthy choice meal for lunch
carrots for a snack
and grilled chicken breast, fresh pineapple for dinner

Now I need to drink more water.

OMG Soreness!!!

I went today for another hour on the treadmill. My body is so sore. I did some weight today. I found out that I cannot do like any push ups anymore.

I am off to smell fresh.

What I have done to start:

First of all I have gotten my husband on board so I would have a teammate.

I used the elliptical machine yesterday for 1 hour and went today also for another hour. I know I need to get myself up to a minimum of 2.5 hours a day of cardio. I am surprised I am in good enough shape to just get going on the machine for an hour.

I was looking at different kind of boot camps because I would like to get started with some other people in the same boat.

2009

Hello Readers!

Well this is it. I have decided to make the big leap and lose 110 pounds. OMG! 3 digits. I have some ideas on how I am going to accomplish this.

Eddie, my husband, says he will take me on any week long cruise I want if I achieve this goal. So this is going to my diary of what I am doing and how I am trying not to cheat. I have a feeling this will probably be one of the hardest things I have ever done.

So the bad:

Current weight= Less than 1/1/08 but not what it need to be: 249.5 pounds. =O

Goal: 140 pounds pounds.

So wish me luck!