Week 8

So no change.....

grrrr...

I am going to reevalue and be back on in a bit. =/

Sore

OMG, it has been two days after my trainer's sample session and I am still sore. It feels so good. Muscles hurting that I typically do not use. I have decided to see how much for him to show me how to use all the machines and give me a 3-month training plan. I think I have the motivation to stick to it.

So for Lent I gave up chocolate and alcohol. So the alcohol will be easy but on my diet I eat a lot of fat free chocolate pudding and ice cream so it will be a challenge.

I found out that Dan from the orange team trains right down the street at gold's gym and also in N. Raleigh with Heba and Ed from last season. (As a matter of fact, I played poker weekly with Heba's brother for about 3 years and didn't realize it was his sister until I saw him on stage at the finale last year) Dan has lost 115 pounds so far and the finale is May 12th which is so good for him. He is so super determined still and that is inspiring me to continue.

I hate having my period =( I always gain around 2-5 pounds and feel so super bloated. It is so discouraging stepping on the scale. I went to the gym last night and did the elliptical while the Biggest Loser was on. I know I can do this. I feel like I have hit some kind of plateau and I want to break into the 220s this week. Tonight is the other half of the Biggest Loser so more elliptical. I am think of 2X a week trying to run 2-3 miles on the treadmill. It is so hard for me because I weigh so much, but I guess I have to start somewhere =/

So what's new

Well. It has been so busy lately.

Sat. morning we hit a deer. We are ok; however, I was seriously sore for the last couple of days so I decided to rest on Sat. and Sun. I thought I should def. be cautious because I do not want to injure myself from over doing it.

Today was the rest of my fitness evaluation. I ran/walked my 1.5 miles in 18:36. Not the best time in the world but this gave me a solid starting point. The trainer went through a session with me. OMG. It was tough and I got such a work out in a 1 hour session. I really want to work with him.

The cost is just amazing.

Their intro special is 5 sessions for 300. Normally it runs 10 for 800 (+1 free), 20 for 1500 (+2 free), or 30 for 2100 (+3 free). They work with you 2-3 times a week and you do cardio on your own 2-3x a week. It is just super expensive. I feel like in one hour he taught me stuff I was just not going to learn off of the internet. Why do they have to be so expensive? My birthday is coming up. I think I might ask for the intro special and learn some new things and maybe see how things go. For the same price however, I can go to boot camp 4 days a week for a month. I feel like I am in that special spot in this life style change that I need that little push foward. I just do not know what I need. I need to be held accountable. Not making a session I spend 60 dollars on is huge.

Week 7

Well on the road again. Thank goodness. I had a solid workout last night; however, as I am writing this it is 1 am and I just sat down. I have to drive my husband to VA tomorrow. I just do not know how I am going to squeeze exercise in this weekend. I will definitely try. Sitting in a car is just not that active now is it.

Well, I am so tired I just wanted to let everyone know that next week I am going to try to make it to the 20 pound weight loss =). I am so close.

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So I must have over did it yesterday. I have so much pain in my legs. I kept telling myself it would feel good enough to go tonight, but I decided to let them rest so I don't hurt myself and go at it hard tomorrow. I have been pretty scared of the scale lately........

39.9

So since I gained week last week, I have been seeking more motivation. I saw a sign in the gym for a free 2-day fitness assessment from a personal trainer. I signed up and tonight was the first night.

After a 30 min health history, Matt (quite a cutie!) took all my measurements, weight, and body fat. So my measurements are nasty. I have never felt so disgusting. So the real number that shocked me is 39.9. That is my body fat percentage. My actual BMI is 37.4. I feel so super disgusting.

He did all these endurance tests with me. I did push ups and sit ups. Apparently I have a core. It was determined that if I really pushed myself I should easily be as in shape as I want to be. He actually told me if I got on the ball I could probably do it by Nov. I have my second day assessment on Mon. It includes a 2 mile run. OMG! I can't run. He said I could walk it, but I am going to go to the gym late these next few days and see what I can do.

Time to combat this!

Ok....so last night we went to a five star restaurant courtesy of Eddie's parents. It was their Christmas present to us and we had decided to use it for Valentine's Day.

The food was amazing!
Pre 1st course: cauliflower soup with oysters
1st course: Duck au confeit
2nd course: Salmon with clam sauce
3rd course: Scallops with orange sauce
4 course: Hot chocolate souffle

With fresh bread of course!

They brought a box of chocolate covered strawberries and graham crackers instead of mints with the check. I wish they would of told me this before I ordered the crappy souffle.

So I am sure that none of this was on my diet. I went with the seafood mostly because it was broiled. They had more fattening options (Fried, cream based sauces, etc.). The cake was disappointing and not worth the money and I actually didn't even finish it. At the end of the night I was really quite proud of my choices.

So now I am straight and narrow on the life change. I didn't make it out to the gym yesterday but I went this morning for an hour and I just got back from another hour. The gym is right down the street in the strip mall on the corner. We got a great deal for 790 for both of us for 2 years if we signed up when it opened. It ends August this year so I am going to think of important factors in choosing the next one. Anyways, I decided to walk and it really isn't so bad. It was 68 and gorgeous today =) I feel so much better.

I gained weight-Week 6

I knew it was happening all week. Even after I exercised for 2:45 last night. I knew it. It was so depressing that at bagel doughnut Friday at work I succumbed to a doughnut. I looked up the nutritional info on the website. I actually picked a pretty good one comparatively. I ate a blueberry caked doughnut for 190 cal. and 11 grams of fat. =/

I called my husband. He said he would start working out with me on a regular basis and even train me at night if I did my cardio in the morning. He is helping me to look forward. So I have decided I want to be at my 20 pound weight loss by the end of the month.

So for lunch today I am going to the gym. I am going out for Valentine's tonight and I want to make sure I get some cardio in today.

Last Chance Workout

So I went to the gym and did my form of cardio for 2:45 min. 2 hours on the elliptical machine and 45 min on the bike. I am tired. I guess I was kind of hoping for a miracle.

I hope everyone stays the course during this difficult week. Next week, we will blow it out of the water =).

Wish me luck tomorrow.

Mental Breaking Point

So I have hit this roadblock. I feel like I just cannot do this. Every time I have stepped on the scale it has been heavier than last Friday and I keep busting my butt at the gym. It has really started to affect me mentally. I have started to question my ability to complete this or even why I am attempting to do this. My body burns from the extra workouts. I do not think I can take gaining weight this week. I really wanted to break 230 pounds this week (20 pound weight loss) but I know now this in unreasonable.

I am tired.

I will not quit. I will persevere, but I am going to have to find help.

Today...

...was a good day- well, for the most part anyway.

I ate well. I tried this healthy pizza thing from scratch. It was really really good. I put bacon on my husband's side. Hunt's dices tomato's with green peppers & onions for the sauce was a great choice. Italian seasoning and reduced fat cheese. I put sliced ham on top. It was soooooo good.

So my husband is a manager at a gas station. An awesome perk is that when things expire he gets to bring them home like chips and doughnuts. (I promptly take those to work and put them in the break room). The thing I look forward to is the fruit. He comes in 2X a week to change it out and my husband just brings it home for me. So today I got 5 bananas, 2 kinds of apples, and an orange. Quite a variety =) When it snowed I got around 40 bananas. I made tons of healthy banana muffin recipes. The banana oatmeal muffins were disgusting, but one of the other ones came out really awesome.

I have actually considered to try to plan out my week's worth of food and snacks. I am not sure how devoted I am to that quite yet. I picked up my pen to pretend to start, but sometimes I get moody and want something different?

On a side note, I wore a size 16 pant to work today and one of the girl's at work said they looked kind of baggy. I am pretty sure I stretched the stuffing out of it while I was getting bigger. I would absolutely love to be in a TRUE Lane Bryant 14 by my birthday (Mar. 29). At 2 pounds a week, that would be another 14 pounds. I wonder if that would be enough.

Nutrition

Man,

It always seem that is where my weakness is. I love to eat, but this is what got me into this place in the first place. I went to Harris Teeter and they had Viola meal in a bags bogo. I looked on every label. The sweet and sour chicken is about 220 calories w/10 grams protein and 1 gram of fat. I took a chance and man is it good. I think I found it the thing I need. It tastes way better than any of the other "diet" food I have eaten. The other kinds aren't really good for you. I heard that there is a sweet and sour shrimp version and I am hoping to find some of those while they are still buy one get one free.

Now I need a good chocolate replacement. I found this ice cream I love. Fat free breyers cappuccino double fudge. I found it while out awhile ago and loved it and I cannot find it. I have been to like 6 stores. =( What a bummer. I hope they didn't cancel the flavor. I bought some sugar free jello cups....They are so expensive. I have started couponing because I am not going to let money get in my way.

Fox reality TV had a biggest loser marathon season 4 on this weekend and I recorded the whole thing. I always feel so encourage when I watch them so I will use it when I want to slack off. Yesterday I watched 3 episodes and went tot he gym. I put in a really solid work out. It was harder than I have worked out in awhile. That should tell you something.

Weigh In Week 5

Well, surprisingly enough I lost weight this week. It was another solid week. I lost 3.5 pounds. I had the first person who didn't know I was on a diet ask if I lost weight. Man, that feels really good. I know he asked because I am wearing my favorite pair of work jeans (I wear them to work all the time) and they are getting big. They are an 18. I do not quite fit the 16s I have yet which is curious. My birthday is Mar. 29th. and I would like to have lost 30 pounds by then. I am trying to figure out if that is going to be realistic.

I hope next week I can dig out all my 16s and put the 18s in the donate. I will never ever see these again. Somebody asked me how I can do this. I realize this time it is already easier since I read blogs of people I feel are like me. Before I work out, I check them all and I read that they worked out. It makes me feel so bad if I read it and do not work out. If they can do it, I can too.

At the end of this journey, I plan on printing the whole blog out. Yes, ALL OF IT. I will clip it together and put it on my fridge. When I want to over indulge, I will read how long and how hard I worked.

I started cruise shopping. You know when I lose the weight I get one. So I have started to dream. I know we cannot really afford it but we cannot afford me not to be healthy either. I want to show all the doubters the real me. The me that is on the inside wanting to burst out.

GOOD LUCK to everyone else on their weigh ins this week.

So this week

So Monday I ended up not going to the gym. I was super sore. I did go for an hour on Tues. and Wed. I hit a wall yesterday on the elliptical machine. I have no idea why my body just randomly shut down. Eddie, has taken to saying every night when I come home that he is so proud of me. See that is way better coming home and getting some love even though I am stinky.

I am going to buy a new bra since mine is getting a little bigger. So on my lunch break I went and got measured on Tues. Wow. So when I started I I was wearing a 42 G. I was measured as a 38 FF. So big change. While I was there I was looking for goal clothes. It was a woman's store so the smallest size they had was a 14W. So I went and got a pair of black pant to see what they would look like on me. The zipper went up and I didn't damage the pants. I probably would need to lose about 10-15 pounds to look awesome in those.

The real problem for my weight loss is going to be when I hit a plateau. Most of you know I was married last August. What you do not know is that I gained 30 pounds after the wedding. I lost 38 for the wedding and gained 30 back. The reason is I plateaued and was discouraged. I am worried when i get back down to that number it will happen all over again. I was thinking when I plateau I will take a kick boxing class or join the boot camp program they have every morning down the street at 5:45AM. I weigh myself every morning so I know where I stand. I read an article that people who weigh themselves everyday are smaller. I will not let the plateau prevail.

So how bad is bad? The Superbowl

So yeah. The party was bad.

So here was the plan. Go to the supermarket and buy food I like that I normally do not buy and treat myself to some healthier options. I made a grilled tuna steak and a nice fruit salad. When I was cooking the party food, I chewed gum. I found a brand that has a flavor such that I cannot stand eating food after I chew it for awhile.

So for the first half I was good. The problem came in at halftime when I started to clean. I started to pick. We had all kinds of goodies -bacon wrapped water chestnuts, honey roasted nuts, chili dip, garlic ranch dip, 2 kinds of brownies, chips, cookies, sausage and the list goes on......

So not only did I succumb, I did it AFTER I spent extra money on me.

I pretty much a few bites of everything.

So my solution was almost as bad as the problem itself. After the Superbowl, I drug myself to the gym and told myself I was not stopping until the elliptical machine said I burned 1500 calories. So yeah, you can guess I was there for awhile. (2 hours and 11 min. to be precise) Oh yes, it gets better! Not only is it 2:30 AM at this point and I have to work in 5 hours, but I also had a full blown asthma attack. I didn't go to bed until my husband woke up for work and he put me to bed. On top of that, I made myself go to work and my legs are now super sore. I was stretching in front of the TV for the last hour and I am not sure I should go back on the elliptical tonight. I might go walk awhile on the treadmill and not overdo it.

A side note, after I was done with 2 hours on the elliptical machine I felt like I could still go which means I probably should start playing with the setting. The one I get on is the Precor EFX I usually do a 10 incline and a 10 resistance. The max for both is 20; however, I do change the incline to work different parts of my legs so my theighs get overly meaty.

Weigh In 4

So yes!! I lost 2 pounds. Pretty solid. I was quite surprised. Finally, my clothes are fitting better. I am getting super excited. I have more energy. My focus this month is going to be to continue with what I am doing.

I have a Superbowl party tonight. I am making bad food, fried cheese, sausage, chips and dip, etc. I am trying to come up with some healthy. I am not sure what to make for me. I am thinking fruit salad or something. I am going to have to walk the supermarket to figure out.