I want this

I need to tell myself that. I have gained some weight.

The Biggest Loser was the makeover show today. Man, it made me sad. They have worked out for approx. the same amount of time and Helen. She is the contestant I was closest to when it started (she was 257 & I was 253) is at 162. I feel like such a failure.

I bought OK magazine that featured Tara and Helen and put the cover on my fridge. Everyday I will have them in my face. I can and will do this.

I went to the gym and did a little bit on the treadmill. My legs are still killing me from the squats so I didn't want to overdo it. I did some weightlifting and pushups.

Tomorrow, I will start again. I weigh 225 pounds. I am down 28 pounds and I need to lose more. I need to do it for me.