Ashamed =(

So the reason I haven't been posting is that I didn't want to admit what kind of time I have been having. I need to really let everyone know.

Friday I went to the gym and it went well. I am try to run the entire time of 2 miles. That is my short term goal. When I am done I hop on the elliptical machine for an hour. I feel like the mini running session kills me. I cannot believe how hard it is.

This weekend was a disaster. First of all, we had company in and she brought about 3 pounds of the most delicious Italian butter cookies I had ever eaten. They are so amazing. I succumbed too much. We went to an Italian place with my husband's family and the service was horrible. I ordered good food but it didn't come for 3 hours. So I ended up eating bread and butter for dinner. Sunday wasn't much better. I am eating everything in sight and am so tired. I have no idea what is up with me.

Yesterday, I tried to get back on the program. did my run/elliptical session, but still the eating wasn't optimum. Today, same thing except I went on the elliptical longer to try to burn some of the excess.

I was doing so well. This is quite the set back. I read on someone's blog a comment that said. "Take it one second at a time. Can't change yesterday and tomorrow isn't here. Eventually the seconds add up." So I think I will do just that.

After we do our taxes, I am going to probably join some kind of program. I am not sure yet though.